Make the right choice.

Since I was a kid, I always dreamt of having one true love. Is this only me or is everyone else dreamt of this? I know it sounds weird for a kid.
20 years later, did I already found what I am looking for? Does true love really exist? I don’t know. I guess as kids we were only inspired by the so-called happily ever after.
I am not the bitter type I still fall in love. Actually, I fall too, many times already. And I failed at the same time. Too many pains, regrets, and self-blaming. I always blame myself for having a miserable love life-ending.
What is it that is lacking? Am I not the one that every guy would really love? Is it really hard to love someone like me? Too many questions in my mind. Am I the only one? Does anyone else feel this way?
Every time I fall in love I always give all that I can do to show it. I guess what’s wrong with me is I don’t start by loving myself. Yes! Do you relate to this?
I have a problem with myself. I always have self-pity. I feel conscious of my body. I love the idea of no to body shaming. But it is really sometimes hard to accept the changes that made us look not pretty. See what I mean? I don’t have self-confidence. I am working on it.
But having someone to love me makes me feel confident. Does every woman agree to this? Being matured made us believed that true love only exists in fairytales. Fairytales are not true. But I want to be Cinderella.
I once watched a movie. It says “ True love is a choice. It is your choice to love someone and to unloved them. “ Sometimes I believe in this. Well being in a mature relationship you always have to decide if you want to stay or not. It is no longer the teenage days if you love them or not. If you were already staying in a long relationship it is very hard to just break up. All things in your life will matter. You need to decide whether to stay in love because of love or because you are already used to having them in your life. There’s no more spark. No feeling that you had when you first say you are in love. It’s your choice to stay in love or to love the person. Make the right choice.